About two years ago I decided to make and release mashups under the name Mochi Beats. I'm happy and relieved to walk away from Mochi Beats completely. I was debating just disappearing quietly without a word. I prayed about it and asked someone much wiser than me, a pastor, about it and he said it was a good opportunity to share my story. So here is my story:
All my life I've been searching for something to fill my life with meaning. I thought it was to get a good education and job. So I worked hard in school, got a job in the 'real world'. I was supposed to have 'made it', but I was still unhappy and empty inside. I tried many external factors to fill me with happiness like nicotine, alcohol etc. but still those ultimately didn't fill the longing within me. So two years ago, I woke up and said "I'm gonna make a mashup album" (random I know). I did that and I thought partying and djing was going to fill the emptiness. It hasn't. I thought getting on The Hype Machine and getting #1s was going to make me happy, but it still did not fill the emptiness within me.
As Mochi Beats became a little more known, the bookings inquiries started coming in but I noticed that I became more unwilling to do them because I knew it would only provide temporary happiness. On the 4th of July this year, I was supposed to meet with a well known dj booking agency. With a heavy heart, I prayed about it and was led to cancel the meeting. And finally I have come to the conviction to walk away from what I was doing completely. I realized I had let it consume me. Every free moment I had was dedicated to it. It changed me, and not in a good way. I became isolated from friends and family. It was all I cared about. Yet it made me even more unhappy, just like all the other endeavors in my life have failed to fill my heart with meaning.
What I believe led up to this is a series of events throughout my life (which I may tell later). But basically off and on throughout the years, I would be led to read the Bible. I would occasionally go to church, usually at a Seventh-Day Adventist one, and was reading material from sites like www.amazingfacts.org. But finally I just can't deny God anymore. I realize "GOD is TRUTH". I realize that God is the only One who can fill this longing in my heart. This has not been a spontaneous decision to quit. I believe God planted the seed in my heart a long time ago and has been waiting patiently and tenderly for me to come to Him. He allowed me to experience these things in my life to realize that He is the only one that can fill the emptiness in me.
Through my readings, I have come to the conviction that Jesus is coming very soon. I feel like I can no longer continue as Mochi Beats or with any other distraction and feel that my time would be spent better learning about Him, and more time sharing Christ and His Love with those yet seeking God's Truth.
I feel like that's my purpose here on Earth. To live for Jesus and to share Jesus with others. I want to spread Truth, real Truth. I want people to be happy...real happiness. I want them to have a better life, an eternal life with Him. I've made a lot of friends over the past year through this, and I hope we can still be friends and keep in touch. In fact I would love nothing more than to keep in touch and be friends. If I was disrespectful to anyone, I am sorry and hope you will forgive me. He can change me for the better. I know God can take even the worst human being on Earth, who is me, and save me!
I'm nervous, but excited and finally at peace. Even writing this I feel like a huge weight is off my shoulders. I feel like I have a new meaning and purpose in my life. As far as music, I would love to put Bible verses to music. That I think would be a great way to memorize those words, or as the Bible says, to hide the word in our hearts (Psalm 119:11). I don't know when I'll do that, but I won't do it under Mochi Beats. I don't know what His plans are for me, it may not even be anything related to music, but I'm looking forward to what He has planned. It may not be some 'big thing', but rather being utilized to uplift Him in the many opportunities that occur in daily life. I believe our time here is very short, and I believe He is coming soon.
I'll end here for now. I may write more later on, but for now this is my story. If you have any questions about God or just want to talk (I just ask that you won't request mp3s, I don't have them anymore), feel free to email me at mochibeats@gmail.com God bless.
Andy
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13
